Hi! How’s everybody doing? It’s been a while, isn’t it? It’s nearly a year now since the last time I updated here and I do miss you all. A lot of things happen over the past 11 months and I can’t imagine how fast time went by! As I look back, I can’t honestly tell how or why I forgot that writing saved me a couple of times. It kept me sane when things weren’t feeling right in my life. When I was so lost and I can’t find the way out through the darkness. So here I am again, finding my way back to writing and being consistent this time.
I admit that life hasn’t been really nice to me. It’s giving me twists and turns like I’m riding on a roller coaster. So many ups and downs too. Yet, I’m learning to accept that life is supposed to be that way. It isn’t perfect and it’s okay. I always believe that perfection doesn’t exist because we will never see the bad side of everything if it does.
I have a confession to make. I’m still not the kind of person I wanted to become. Actually, I don’t even know what I really wanted to become. Most of my friends and family seems like they know what they wanted to do with their life. While here I am, being a couch potato, just do whatever I want – read, write, do gardening. Do I sound sluggish now to you? Well, I don’t see myself that way. I wake up early, feed my pets, clean the house, look after our small family business and cook every single day. I don’t have a 9 to 5 pm job and I don’t go to school anymore.
I’m in my late 20’s and while others are hustling making money, getting married, having children and living the life, here I am, letting the wind take me anywhere it wants me to go. I don’t want to force everything anymore. I’m being content with what I have right now and it stresses me out when I compare myself to other people’s states. Some are telling me that I should look for a “real” job that pays the bills. I understand their point about making money yet they don’t understand my anxiety with the idea of going back to the corporate world, following orders and getting paid for doing work that I don’t really want to do and never learn from it. I choose to keep my mental health healthy every day, especially in these times of uncertainty.
I don’t know now how I should end this update after the confession that I just made. But I want to let you all know that I’m beyond grateful for all of you, my readers. You’ll always be one of the reasons why I’ll still come back to writing.
Thank you so much for reading!